WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO HEAR IS A REAL SUICIDE HELP CALL
I escaped child sex trafficking. From my experience and my blog, I can tell you this is the best call most people receive from suicide or rape crisis networks. I also called RAINN and got the same results. I called everywhere. I called and called for help about my rapes and flashbacks.
Person after person told me blankly and coldly told me “call someone else,” or “just figure it out,” some even acting disbelieving of my horrible traumas. When I failed, I tried again. Finally, I was breaking down completely. I shook and wanted to just end everything after the call you’re about to hear. But thank God I gave myself a reason to live: to warn others about these “charity corporations.”
I RECORDED MY CALL FOR HELP
Listen to what happened.
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Note: the very long silences were not added but were actual silences by the staff at 1 (800) 799-SAFE
(likes and reblogs- let change this system!)
This is horrible. People really should be aware about this because a lot of places and even tumblr refer to suicide hotlines.
I hate to sound like an asshole, but if you’ve reached out to every number and chat you’ve come across and gotten no help, why haven’t you gone to a therapist? I understand agoraphobia is real and terrifying, but you’re going in circles trying to get help from places you know aren’t going to help you. It’s a lot of wasted time if you know no one in those call centers will truly listen and help you.
You do sound like an asshole.
Not only will no one help me, but no one will believe I need help.
Every. Single. Person has treated me like my desperation live is just me whining and not trying hard enough when really NO ONE WILL HELP ME.
If I’ve been through everything, one more bitchy comment can’t break me, right? One more straw can’t break the camel’s back! Well congrats: you’re the straw. You found a person suicidal person desperately crying for help and blamed her.
I overcame alcoholism but I have razor blades and control my need to die if I don’t drink RIGHT NOW. Blame me. You’re the type who would. But READ THIS STORY and tell me it’s nobody’s fault but my own that what you said sent me over the edge.
I do everything I can all day long and help everyone. When I come to the end of my rope you and everyone else are saying the same thing my abuser’s said - it’s YOUR fault you’re acting so hurt.
I’m sure YOU’LL sleep soundly without YOUR INBOX full of hate like what you just put me through. despite what you just did. You’re the kind of person who would.
Go ahead followers. Judge me. Call me stupid. Hate me. You’re probably right. But I want to live today and this is the only way to do it.
(likes and reblogs not expected for the lazy, slutty drunk)